Hanging On Days
There are some days in the program that just plain suck. They are uncomfortable, we are uncomfortable, nothing seems to work, we project and obsess and generally drive ourselves nuts. Our best thinking got us to this point and yet we do not know what to do. All of that stuff that we have heard about the prgram and how it works seems a million miles away, is not relevant to me, my sponsors telephone number is not handy, my car is not working and can't get to a meeting and God is not part of the thought process. These are what I call “hanging on” days. We have broken contact with our Higher Power and we feel right about nothing. Despite the fact that God loves us always we have lost contact. EGO is back and we have edged god out(EGO).

We have to believe that it will get better if we do the right things and get out of our own way. These right things are prayer, meditation, the serenity prayer, the telephone. Keep in touch with other alcoholics and do not isolate. Talk about how you are feeling. Work the steps. Call your sponsor. Then just hang on. Time will take care of most of our greatest fears but that will happen in his time not in ours. So be prepared to just “hang on” If I do this it seems to improve my hold on sobriety and makes me realize that this is something we all go through and that I am not unique.